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You rehearse the conversation — and still leave thinking you sounded off.

You script conversations before having them. You rehearse what you'll say, how you'll stand, when to reach out for the handshake. You walk in and you're already scanning faces, measuring silences. You leave feeling you didn't say what you meant, and that what you did say sounded strange. Later, at night, you replay it. It's not exactly shyness. Connecting just costs you an energy other people seem to have in surplus.